Patience-Patience

That is one thing I am lacking. I admit it. I hate waiting for things to happen. When I pray for something, I want it waiting for me by the time I finish praying. I know I'm unreasonable. What can I say? I think that is why I get so frustrated. I need to work on letting go and letting God in His time do the fixing, the mending, the healing. You get the picture............

I sometimes wonder if God is even listening. There is a void. Too quiet. God, are you there? Why can't I hear you? Even as I read Your Word I wonder if you'll answer. This is not me. The only thing I can blame it on is being sick for so long that I found myself giving up. I need to get turned around again. Instead of keeping my head down, keep it looking ahead and up. I don't need to see where I've been. I know where I've been. Believe me when I say it was no sweet place. It's time for me to get out and smell the roses again. Time to be thankful for what I do have and stop complaining about what I don't have. I have been on this pity party way too long. Ok Joanne, die to that old self and get on with the new. Life is waiting for you.

The one thing that I do look forward to is Sunday mornings. Even in all my frustrations, church is the one place I find peace and rest. To sit and worship with family and friends is a gift I cherish. For that one hour in church and Sunday School I am at peace with myself. Yes, life is waiting for me to move forward. To rejoice and sing praises for all that God has done and is doing for me. I'll take that hour of church and let it roll over to 2, 3 and more hours. Take the hours and roll them into days, weeks and months. Yes, life is waiting for me to move on and with God's help I will do it.